The Path That I Really Wanna Go
these past few days has been happeningmainly because of CNY
but others are jusst part and parcel of life..
I've handled in my portfolio, movie and composition
did what I could to make sure that I am still in the position for getting into NTU
hopeful as I am
I've also expected that worse
When I was preparing for my portfolio and stuff
I really did wanna give up
mainly cos I have to struggle between work and my preparation
it seems like not a hard thing at all
but it all sums up to this question:
Do I really wanna get in?
I struggled with it
and came to the point that I've come so far
and that this is one only chance that may be left for me to do what I really want
why should I give up?
and then just now went to Fuzion ex-colleagues gathering
E told me the cold hard truth of career in animation
and blah blah
I nid to know these
so that I am better prepared for the worse
and also hope for the best
I've always been lidat
and suddenly I realised that Singapore is not the way to expand what I want
I nid to go to places like US and Japan to be exposed..
I'm mentally prepared for it
but is anyone ard me prepared for it?
these suddenly questions just come popping out and flood my mind..
but I'm still hopeful if I can get in
cos seriously I dun have great results
I just register cos I really want it..
enough of sad things..
Friday went to take my report
it was working perfectly fine
so nothing is wrong lah
budden Friday I'm quite bz
have to take care of some stuff for portfolio..
then go grandpa's house for reunion dinner
then have to help dearie change his clothes..
luckily can change Levi's jeans to my daddy's size
and buy him another pair..
and change the shirt..
thank goodness everything's working perfectly fine
but I din get to meet MZ and HX as promised
still feeling bad abt it.....
then sat have to go my grandpa's house (again) to do some offerings for ancestors
was overslpt
but luckily made it on time cos they started everything not long ago
did what I nid to do
and rushed home
clean up the house
did some silly things
were angry with my daddy who only wanted to just sit there and do nothing
snapped at him quite a lot of times that day
but luckily he bought the pants from me lah
at discounted price: $88
then found out that he struck lottery..
how nice can anything be sia?
rushed everything
and managed to prepare myself for dearie's sec sch close friend's gathering
cos one of them is flying to US for a couple of months on CNY day 2
so we went to watch Ghost Rider
movie was ok..
but it can be improved
not the storyline
but the fighting scenes
after the movie is photography session
can u imagine 3guys were taking each other's photo with a camera that worth $6k?
yeah..
I was involved too
though it felt weird
maybe because of those pictures I took at iModel
phobia liaoz..
I seem to be afraid of cameras
now talk abt CNY
you know how much I actually spent for CNY?
more than a thousand bucks...
from furniture to clothes
its a hell lot of money!
CNY day 1 is as usual
went to grandpa's place then 2nd granduncle's place
went to gamble for killing time
luck wasnt too bad
cos I din lose
neither did I win lah..
budden went to dearie's house..
I've also brought some CNY goodies there
cos dearie brought some over to my place..
its courtesy to "hui-li" to his family
but I bought a lot more lah
got bah-kua, peanuts, blah blah
its really heavy!
as usual
spent my night at dearie's house
CNY day 2..
went to er-gu and er-yi's house
was rushing a lot..
cos I forgot to bring something then have to go home and take
then in the end something came very shocking
the gathering at er-gu's house became a very intense meeting
after that had lunch and rushed to er-yi's house..
got lion dance (as usual)
and the lion back is my cousin
get 4D numbers from this picture!
(not so obvious one lah..must study the picture)
after the lion dance..
its gambling time of course
in the end?
won a total of 30bucks thru black jack
a lot of money lo!!
split between dearie and me cos he put money I play
and reaching 6pm we rushed all the way back to Tampines from Seletar Hill to visit dearie's shenshen's house
were supposed to have dinner there
budden in the end dearie play mahjong
He won abt 10-20bucks I think
and thats when I realised that luck is all I nid in life
cos when u have luck you have money and whatever u want?
haha
then dearie went to my house to slp that night..
CNY day 3...
nobody's going to xiao-yi's house early
so dearie and I went to Genki to eat
we were pretty down before CNY
(he's down on his studies while i'm down on my portfolio and other stuffs)
so just to make ourselves happy lo
then went to xiao yi's house..
lose 20 over bucks on black jack
haix
then stop and went home after that cos that time havent do my video..
stayed awake till like 5am n then finished the video
damned tiring lo
then next day headache like hell so nv go work
go get MC..and shun bian go NTU hand up whatever I nid to hand in..
suddenly feel relieved
I like the school alot
but I was lost lah
so asked a non-singaporean for direction
I really dunno what he was saying
cant tell if he's indonesian, thai or japanese
so I always repeat what he said so as to correct my misunderstandings
n suddenly it rained!!!!!
fwah
so drama lo
and I was really drenched when I was heading home
still like NTU a lot..
nvm
I can slowly enjoy the environment on the 3rd of march for faculty test
hehe
cant wait for that day to come!
then CNY day 5 go work lah
then saw 2 mandarin oranges inside a small bag on my desk
then I realised everyone has one of those bags
=.=
but the 2days at work is productive
cos I'm not so tied up by 2 different things
n I managed to achieve the results that I want
^^
yesterday was ren ri..
went to dearie's house for some fortune telling
his uncle(fortune teller) told me that I am a man inside a lady's body..
eh..what I meant was my character abit macho...
abit like man lah
cannot offend me one
if not I'll like bring the world upside down (read: I'll flare)
n he advise Dearie to give in to me(read: =.=")
then I ask if I can get into NTU
he said its not the matter of whether I can get in
its the matter of my mood
if NTU wants me n I'm not in the mood to go in
then I wun lo.. (then I was like thinking..fwah..I so da-pai one meh?)
then had my super late meal (first n last meal of the day between 8-9pm)
went to have some drinks at ECP's Beach Cabana..(as mentioned earlier)
its still some cool gathering...
but damned tired
cos I drank a total of 3mugs of beer..
dunno for what..
like I'm still down neh
(read LoveDiary for more info)
but still..
not a bad day..
alright
I'm really tired..
go have rest le..
after the lion dance..
its gambling time of course
in the end?
won a total of 30bucks thru black jack
a lot of money lo!!
split between dearie and me cos he put money I play
and reaching 6pm we rushed all the way back to Tampines from Seletar Hill to visit dearie's shenshen's house
were supposed to have dinner there
budden in the end dearie play mahjong
He won abt 10-20bucks I think
and thats when I realised that luck is all I nid in life
cos when u have luck you have money and whatever u want?
haha
then dearie went to my house to slp that night..
CNY day 3...
nobody's going to xiao-yi's house early
so dearie and I went to Genki to eat
we were pretty down before CNY
(he's down on his studies while i'm down on my portfolio and other stuffs)
so just to make ourselves happy lo
then went to xiao yi's house..
lose 20 over bucks on black jack
haix
then stop and went home after that cos that time havent do my video..
stayed awake till like 5am n then finished the video
damned tiring lo
then next day headache like hell so nv go work
go get MC..and shun bian go NTU hand up whatever I nid to hand in..
suddenly feel relieved
I like the school alot
but I was lost lah
so asked a non-singaporean for direction
I really dunno what he was saying
cant tell if he's indonesian, thai or japanese
so I always repeat what he said so as to correct my misunderstandings
n suddenly it rained!!!!!
fwah
so drama lo
and I was really drenched when I was heading home
still like NTU a lot..
nvm
I can slowly enjoy the environment on the 3rd of march for faculty test
hehe
cant wait for that day to come!
then CNY day 5 go work lah
then saw 2 mandarin oranges inside a small bag on my desk
then I realised everyone has one of those bags
=.=
but the 2days at work is productive
cos I'm not so tied up by 2 different things
n I managed to achieve the results that I want
^^
yesterday was ren ri..
went to dearie's house for some fortune telling
his uncle(fortune teller) told me that I am a man inside a lady's body..
eh..what I meant was my character abit macho...
abit like man lah
cannot offend me one
if not I'll like bring the world upside down (read: I'll flare)
n he advise Dearie to give in to me(read: =.=")
then I ask if I can get into NTU
he said its not the matter of whether I can get in
its the matter of my mood
if NTU wants me n I'm not in the mood to go in
then I wun lo.. (then I was like thinking..fwah..I so da-pai one meh?)
then had my super late meal (first n last meal of the day between 8-9pm)
went to have some drinks at ECP's Beach Cabana..(as mentioned earlier)
its still some cool gathering...
but damned tired
cos I drank a total of 3mugs of beer..
dunno for what..
like I'm still down neh
(read LoveDiary for more info)
but still..
not a bad day..
alright
I'm really tired..
go have rest le..
Joelle`*