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Man..how I miss my old self......

I was reading my previous blog entries
I felt like I was so alive..
is it because I'm tired of life now?
or its just that I din know how to spice up my life like b4?
din know
suddenly feel that the hyperactive me has just disappeared
n I desperately wanna go back to where I was

I love being hyperactive!
I love exploring things
walking aimlessly in a mall
catching new stuff outside
looking at the latest trends
dressing up
it's so nice to be outside
but why am I at home now?

I guess window shopping alone is something you can do once in a while
watching movie oso
I've shopped and watched movies alone too many times during the past year
it seems like
no $ = no life
when I get my SIP I'll be slogging my heads off and earn more money
just hope that the company that I'm working is around the Tampines central area
muahahahaha
*daydreaming*

I was watching SCV and one of the shows show two celebrities who divorced their husband
one of the husband was just slogging his head off for his wife
n that requires him to work at china
for 7 years they never really communicate
because this husband's perspective of happiness is to provide money for his wife&family(no kids one)
why do most men have such a perspective?!
no $ is the greatest sin in life
but what women want is romantic
I'm not saying everyday-romantic
I'm talking about once-in-a-blue-moon romantic
anniversaries, birthdays, family gatherings,
or even some cute stuff like together-for-a-1000-days celebration
n sometimes
when men give too much in the beginning
(shower gifts, flowers, blahblah)
then after a long period of being in the relationship
men tend to slack cos they thought you knew how much they love you
and those showering-of-gifts actions slowly disappear
in the end?
women became the affection monsters
demanding some tactfulness and affection and care and concern
n that pushed men away~
problem:why cant guys just show what they can be in long term, instead of showing some short term affection that made women have the habit of accepting them in the long term?
a friend's friend of mine
bf treat her say so-so..
normal guy:play DotA blahblah
but she din complain
cos, he's been like that since the beginning of the relationship
she's used to it
if a guy treats u super good in the beginning of the relationship
then the affection gradually slipped with time
do u yearn for the beginning-of-the-relationship times?
i'm not comparing the then and now
i'm just stating that its a habit that men set in the beginning of the relationship
they cant blame women for being too sticky or wadsoeva
because they ask for it
some women can live with it
others?
leave that freaking mizuderstood relationship = me!

I've always heard of my gfs asking me why men were nice n they find it a nuisance when they asked him to be what he was
point is: some guys grow to understand this mizunderstood part = mature men
while others?
they continue to live in agony thinking why the hell all women are the same
and hence do something that they dont like
mature men have 2 diff approach
one is slack affection at the beginning
other is maintain the affection they set at the beginning
well, diff approach appeals to diff women
perhaps such approaches doesnt help at all

we cancelled the seoul garden trip for tml
sad~
whatever~
still
I still dislike who I am
who I am when I'm attached
who I am when I'm vulnerable
>.<
forget it
I'm just killing time blogging
ciaoz~

Joelle`*