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wait a min
why am I here?
guess the first day of term test already wear me out
my fashion lecturer says I have enough research..
just lack of the pictures from the design my artist adopt the idea from
n the designers who adopt his idea
alright..
guess I have more to do during the term break..
n fabrics search
man..
I'm going to cry
but I love doing such stuff
am I crazy or wad?

SWEN's term test
ermz..
finished it within an hr
well,
shld be the fastest term test I've ever gotten
anyway
mcq is full marks..
but the rest..
haix..
lets drop it
my projects for term one is like over
so I'm so not looking forward to term two
cos the work load is so much heavier..
n there's nothing to think anymore
n my poor guy have to visit me more often than I visit him..
-_-||

did i tell u i received a lawyer letter from singnet?
initially my mum says she cutting our allowance
which I'm completely fine with it
budden..
my sister doesnt allow that!
and thankful to my sis
I have to pay the first month's bill
which is like over 100bucks
I'm fine with paying
but...the due date is tml
n my mum just told me i shall pay the first month yesterday
I'm so damned frustrated with my family..
n now I have no idea whether I really do have the money
screw myself

n as for the plan I've had in the previous blog
I din managed to study tml's paper
so I guess later I'm gonna burn my mn oil
n..study
wad my cmsk lecturer promised on giving us the mock test ans did not deliver to me
n now my head is aching
thank god I have dearie
he has been supportive n encouraging me..
in times like this..
he's always there...

n I'm really waiting for myself to break down
with debts..
n mind u
i still have a hp bill to cover
my o-so-stable life is like gone!
n my friends keep cancelling outings..
I'm so damned frustrated with myself..
wad have I gotten myself into?
serious..
I did feel like indulging into vulgar n pour it straight out to everyone who brought agony to me
u know who u r, friends..
nvm
I guess I'm stressed..
too damned stressed

>.<
I've been a cry baby these days
I'm so not myself..
I'm so vulnerable nowadays
n it seems like everyone is extracting me out of their circle..
I'm definitely not invited or wadsoeva
neither can I hang out with my friends with dearie..
I mean..
if people doesnt like the idea
just shoot..
tell me straight in the face
then i shall be extra tactful if anything just conflict in everyone's way
but seriously
I dun c anything wrong

ok..
lemmi put everything into summary
first of all
my studies is in a bad situation
I looked at my exam results for all sem
n there's no failure in it
n now
it seems pretty bad..
second
my social life is lacking
everyone just doesnt allow us to go out with them as a couple
with him or without him
if with him
everyone will not be going
or being a gooseberry if we're going out with only one person
so far only MZ dares to do that
haiz
wadeva
their psychological term is not to mine
n I dun understand at all
cos we know everyone
its like a circle
there's always a link
to another person
I guess nobody really can accept us as a couple..
thirdly
my family
it's going downhill
plus this bill thingy
n my grandpa
I've not visited him for so long
I dunno wad I'm doing
n his condition is not very good

anyway..
time to get back to my...studies on marketing
1/2 hr more to exams
ciao guys
take care

Joelle`*